The Infinite Circle

But what does it all mean... is
there a special purpose for each of us? Or are we just existing? The
"meaning of life" is the endless, age-old question that haunts us all
at some point in our life. Are we here to touch other's lives in some way... to
break their hearts and destroy their souls... to lift them up and guide them...
or are we just here for the most primal, basic and selfish reason? Survival...
They say that the meaning of
life is different for each one of us. For me all I want to do is love... be
loved... and share my monotonous, endless days with someone whose face I never
tire of. But even that is a challenge in itself. People come and go in and out
of our lives... always searching for the next best thing. Never really finding
it, only to settle because the years have crept up on us and we are terrified
to be alone at the end.
Our course as humans has taken
us to a time where it's become normal to "shop" for a partner. We
swipe left... we swipe right... his hair is too short... her hips are too
wide... he doesn't have a good enough job. We never take the time or spare the
effort to meet someone and get to know them and understand them on a soulful
level. It's become far too easy to ignore someone until they simply "go
away" when we grow tired of them, and then we quickly move on to the next
"flavor of the week". We have become dehumanized... complacent...
judgmental... and narcissistic. The connections people used to find have become
scarce. And when we do find that connection... that "true love" that
would fill our soul... we run.
I fear for the future of
human-kind... I weep for the generations to come that may never know what it's
like to feel the nervous butterflies deep in their stomach when someone they
like touches their hand for the first time. Before they even get to know someone,
they will have a preconceived idea of who they believe that person really is...
and they will be dissuaded by a disappointment that hasn't yet been
earned.
And selfishly I fear for
myself. As the years have crept up on me, I too am beginning to feel that sting
in my chest... wondering if I will travel the rest of my days on a solo path.
But I will not settle... I will NEVER settle. I still believe in true love... I
believe in that rare, and oh so precious connection that can exist between two
people. So, I lie awake one more night... wondering if my hope is misguided...
praying that this life is more than just an "existence" as I prepare
my mind to wake up to yet another day.
~ Alethea J Salazar © 2018
Comments
Post a Comment